Begin Again...a New Year

2019 is here!
We get to Begin Again...
I don't know about you but every year I make resolutions and have great plans to accomplish x, y and z.
And EVERY year, I get down on myself for the ones that don't get done. My own personal score card marked in red and black with a final result in BOLD.
Instead of making me feeling happy at what did work, I am more unhappy about what didn't get done.
Not sure that's a healthy way to be, at least for me. And I don't think that is how I want to measure my life.
There has to be a better way.
Don't get me wrong - goals and resolution and intentions are important and integral to keeping our dreams alive and our lives focused. But honestly some of the resolutions have been on my New Year's list for literally decades.
For example:
1. Lose weight
2. Write a book
Sigh.
Weight loss (and gain) has been a struggle for me for thirty (yup, 30) years. I go up and I go down but I NEVER get to where I think I should be. And it is becoming exhausting trying and trying and not achieving. 
Writing a book has been on my list forever. I have written short stories, articles, taught writing and journaling classes but NOT finished a book that I could submit for publication. 
Yet year after year, these two items are the main crux of my year's aspirations. Year after year, I don't reach the goals. Year after year, I feel crappy about myself.
Am I in essence beating my head against the proverbial wall in my quest? Or am I just looking at it the wrong way?
I think the answer is c)both of the above.
In yoga, we preach self-acceptance and self-love. By holding myself to a goal that I obviously (for reasons unknown) cannot accomplish, I set myself up for failure. Not a good example of either self-acceptance or self-love. Self-sabotage 101
As for the book, I spend a lot of time on shorter writings, teaching classes and other writing that then uses up energy and time that could have been spend on writing a complete book. Self-sabotage 102
This year I have two goals  resolutions intentions.
1. Self-acceptance
2. Self-love
And I will achieve these both by BEING what I am right now in this moment and ACCEPTING that as 100% okay. Better than okay, actually. Darn okay.
I will continue to eat healthy, teach and practice yoga, kayak, cycle and walk.
I will set aside dedicated writing time each day and write whatever I feel like. If it turns into a book, great. If it doesn't, great. It will be what it needs to be and I will be open to the universe to give me what I need.
And so I Begin Again....with a fresh breath and a new way of seeing.
Namaste!